Friday, October 4, 2013

I Have NO Excuse

Everyday I think, "today is the day!" Today is the day I will have a creative thought and turn that into a blog. Unfortunately, it has been 4 months and that hasn't happened so I'm no longer waiting for creative inspiration. I've decided to attack my writing like the exercise I never want to do but keep making myself. If I keep getting on that treadmill or doing Pilates I always feel a sense of accomplishment even if I mentally complaint the whole time.  And I think my blog deserves the same attention because creativity is as instrumental to health and wellness as exercise is, isn't it?

So I'm back.  Why have I been away?  Honestly, it has been because of a tension between what I think about writing and how much of myself I should continue to put out there for "public" consumption.  Because, really, it isn't just me I'm putting out there.  It is the people in my life who love and care about me.  I can't really tell stories that only affect me because my life is richer than that.  So when do you know what to say and what not to say?

Beyond that, the past few months have been challenging.  I've been faced with loss, grief, happiness, big life decisions, travel, work... the list, like yours, goes on and on.  But really I think it boils down to the fundamental question I just posed - how much can/should I share?

I don't know how I will come to a conclusion on that question without starting to write again.  So I'm back. I've missed you.  Have you missed me too?

2 comments:

  1. I've missed your reflections Mess. They are brave and bold and so beautifully honest....and you know.... that's just who you are.

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    1. Thanks so much, Sunny! It feels good to be doing this again.

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