Love Kills Slowly

As I've mentioned before, I'm extreme. Either happy and laughing or dark and twisty (yes, I stole this from Grey's Anatomy but it is totally appropriate). When I'm dark and twisty, my footwear taste is a bit different. Enter my Ed Hardy "Love Kills Slowly" snow boots. I fell in love with them and had to have them during a difficult time in my life. I not only like what they say but they are knee high, silver and fur-lined. I mean, what's not to love?

But the other day I wore these boots and got to thinking, does love really kill slowly? The saying goes, "you can't help who you love"; but is that true? And if it is, and the love is something that isn't good for you, is it the love that kills you slowly or your choices about said love? We've all been there... a relationship we intuitively know is bad for us yet we stay in it. Why do we stay? Is it truly because we can't turn our back on love?Or is it because we don't have the courage to walk away?

I wish I had the answer to this when I was in my 20s... in the end, I walked away. But then, it wasn't really love anyway.

I know, that is a lot to think about on a cold Monday. But unlike our snowfall this winter, my thoughts are deep!

Other People

Sometimes it is amazing to me how concerned people are about other people's lives. Which is somewhat contradictory because I am fascinated by others but I think I have some limits. Like I would never ask people to confirm a rumor about themselves. And I would never ask a colleague if their divorce was hostile. I mean boundaries are a good thing, right? I know my filter isn't always on but I try to draw the line at invading people's personal lives...

Which then leads me to wonder how concerned I am about what other people think. In my younger days I was VERY concerned, but as I get older and more comfortable in my skin it seems to matter less and less. I mean, people are going to talk regardless of what I do and I can only control my own actions.

Which is why I was kind of impressed when a CEO (who shall remain nameless) walked into my office wearing 2 different shoes yesterday. He got dressed in the dark and didn't notice until pulling into the parking garage at his office building. Once there, he decided that it would be more fun to see how observant his staff was than to go home and change. Now, I would definitely not be seen with 2 different shoes but I appreciate his willingness to make fun of himself and not really care what others think. Not taking yourself too seriously is a wonderful trait and we should all take a lesson...

But I did have a serious conversation with him about the black socks!

Off to a Good Start

I was ready for 2010 to come to an end. Truth be told, it was the most bittersweet year of my life. A lot of changes and I'm not sure what comes next. But I do know that I am making a good home for me, Stella & Sophie. It is scary, for sure, but isn't change always scary?

So it seems fitting that on the last day of 2010, we got blinds. Yep, we have been living in this house for 14 months with temporary blinds. Pathetic but very telling about the road we'd been traveling. So now we have beautiful blinds (on the first floor at least) and every night I close them and every morning I open them. Who knew I would ever be so excited about blinds?

But lest you think I've completely lost my mind, on the first day of 2011 I bought these beauties. No, they aren't the Bucket List Boots. I mean do you seriously think I could splurge on those right now? I'm the proud owner of blinds, remember? Anyway, they are still "delicious" as one facebook friend called them - black, suede, over the knee platforms with 5 inch heels. (And if you want to know where I'll wear these, let me tell you. Out with the girls, to the grocery store, to a dinner party - shoot, I'll wear them while operating my Kitchen Aid mixer! Who knows... I'll wear them everywhere!)

And I get to spend the second day of 2011 with my bestie and her family. And I know there are a bunch of special moments in store for me today. I don't know about you, but I think 2011 is off to a great start. Happy New Year!