Steady as We Go

I have issues. I don't trust easily. I have walls around me. I don't know how to budget. I am incapable of not being generous to those I love even if it means I have to go without. I am impatient and stubborn. I hate to clean. I am almost incapable of admitting I am wrong or need help. Believe me, there are more.

A very good friend of mine often says, "wait on it. wait on it". It drives me and his fiancee insane at times but he is right. I am a Sagittarius - translation, extreme. Hot or cold. Black or white. Happy or sad. Sky is falling or the possibilities are endless. Moving or sitting still. In other words, waiting is not necessarily a natural thing.

Right now, I am at a crossroads. I can continue to calculate every next move and assess the risk associated with it. Or I could just say "f*(! that". I'm going to trust, have faith, plan to the best of my ability and believe everything will work out for the best. After having your heart broken and being betrayed multiple times, it is hard to do that. But what if it is worth the risk? How do you know you won't end up in more pain than before? (yes, at this point you should slap me and say, "Welcome to the human race, Melissa.")

Like the thigh high sequined Manolo Blahniks. You don't wear these if you aren't willing to take a risk. And if you can pull these off, imagine what else you can accomplish? And by you, I mean me. At the end of the day, isn't it just about putting one super sexy 5 inch heel in front of the other? I mean, I trust I won't fall down. I trust no one will laugh at my style. Maybe it really is all about taking it Steady as we go... What do you think?